Eoys are over!!!!!!!!!! but the feeling of joy’s different now. Its been a different year and definetely a year of change for me. THere was once when i was freaking obsessed with stuff and now everything’s quite different though. I remember how i used to love planning, setting targets, pushing myself, and feeling rlly satisfied after that. But now its kinda different, i guess its just a passing phase in life. But i hope i wont change that much and get my character back. The funloving, always positive, competitive, determined spirit that i’ve always have.

These Eoys was a terror for me, it turned out great at the beginning of the year cos i was VERY focused and wanted to start afresh cos these year’s the promotional year i rlly wanna get my BCME. and then things atarted getting complicated. after the june holidays, there was this period of time where i balled like hiong in sch, and then went home to rrun at the siglap connector. well that lasted only for a few weeks before all the shit came. During my birthday month, my htigh probs came back and its still hauting me till now. tried this, acupuncture that, doctor’s here and there and still no solution. and then my psychological aspect became crappy. my running speed became low, horrible, and then died. and my weight came escalating downnnnnnnnn like crazy eventhough i’m increasing my food intake like 50% more then last time. So now i’ve this effing big belly but i’m kinda still thin and stuff.

So the eoys was did badly cos i couldnt study well, always thought and have been thinking bout my probs and how to solve it for a rlly long time. But it just made me FEAR, fear even more, fear bout failing, feeling the pressure, feeling just a little tiny bit tired.

But now since the exams’s over. Its a brand new start for me. I’m gonna face life like i’ve always:D i’m gonna start getting my awesome stomach back, my eager to run for everyball there is, my perserverance, to continue running and gaining  back all the shit i’ve lost. one way or another, i’m gonna get my stamina back no matter how hard it takes. of course there’s litmits, but im just gonna try my best and give it my all when i can. since mum and dad have been supporting me all these time. i wont let them down:D

k now lets talk about the fun thinggggggggggg. hahaha anyways i’ve been flipping through the pages of my handbk where i always right my events or plans for the holidays, and i realised that this year’s passed RLLY RLLY fast. i mean like seriously! all those things that happened last year are still FRESH in my mind. ahhaaha. yea so on fri, me nana rachel and christina balled in sch for awhile and then we ended up leacing early since we were quite exhausted and stuff. Sat was orchard with nana and jiaqi, hahahha we were like slacking and i realised were actually spent almost 2 hrs having lunch at Old town coffee @ cineleisure. then at night i met mum @ KLP and we watched some chinese show. hahha with the chen zhen guy! i forgotten the name of the hsow but it was rlly nice. afterrr so long we finally watched a movie tgt :D:D:DHAHHAA and spilled out popcorn. hahha srlsly funny. yeppp and then yesterday, i went to kemb after yoga to find sitong, weichia, geoff and jz and we balled for a while and then qi joined us for a movie at plaza sing. HAHAHHAHHA and the show was FREAKINGGGGGGGG hilarious. we watched”th other guys” but actually was supposed to watch “buried” but it was NC 16 and this china lady didn’t let us through cos geoff didin’t bring his id card. lol cos he was using he’s mum’s ez link. LOLOL. k anyways before that we had dinner at Manhatten fish market and OMGGGGGGGggg the food’s rlly awesome. :D:D too bad we didn’t have our camera or we could have taken a hell lot of funny htings that happened that was too much to be named. hahahha and how the guy’s were so enggrossed in this this sexbook. LOLOL i tlly can’t 4get their expressions man.

Yea so yesterday was rlly fun. got to know geoff, jz, sitong,wc better. and i realised how retarded and gluttony geoff is. HAHAHHA just jking^^. but then i gotta admit he’s damn funny. hahah

k gtg. going nana’s hse tmrw to swim, then off to nutritionist and i’m getting a new phone plan with nokia c6 :D:D::D yayayyayay can’t w8!