School starts, and i’m burnt out

I cant seem  to find happiness, in days like these. Just 3 weeks ago, every single day felt like a a weekend, everything’s so fun, life’s just full of opportunities and things i want to achieve. My mind has been open, i could laugh about at anything, everything, crack retarded jokes that happen to be rlly funny.

But in just 2 weeks, my nightmare begins. Orientation was great, but studying sucks. I was rlly active during the hols, jogged lyk practiccally everyday, even those days with trainings. I still can’t beleive how i work up @ 7, looking forward to jogging to macs to meet my cousins for bfast. Now, thinking of even jogging a few rounds, i just hated it. Is  it just mundane, or am i being lazy?

Well yea, now my spd and stamina sucks cos i’ve not been running much lately. It feels kinda queer, @ the same time, i can’t seem to exert myself till i used to.The satisfaction u get when u run till u can;t take it anymore, and then the more u run, the more u want to go on and on and on:D I miss that, miss that ALOT.

Tday’s been cold, really cold, more like winter, yea, during chinese new year. CNY’s in 2 days and i can’t seem to be in the mood for any celebration. I don’t know why, but i miss being happy, happy @ just simple prospects of liife. Where has my humour gone to?Nothing apeals to me now. Even simple jokes can’t make me smile, or laugh….

and funny jokes cant get into my head. I really wanna treat life as an enjoyable one, being happy eevryday, making my friends laugh, smile, and spread my positive attitude, but I just can;t seem to get it right…

Maybe i’m nt trying my best, but i think i rlly need someone to brighten up my life. sunshine, i need to real bad D:

I really hope a miracle can happen, i wanna get inspired, i want that urge, that motivation, someone, you. in my life.