Competition

Hi peeps:D I realised that my blog have been dead for a VERY long time. Lag right, cos when sch starts, computer usage = 0. Yay so i’m reviving it now.

Anyways, Chinese New Year is coming in about 2 weeks time! I love CNY, new clothes, new shoes, EVERYTHING’S NEW! And the festive season with all the pre CNY sales are the BEST! I miss my grandpa cos we havenn’t seen him and ah yee for a very long time, cos when sch starts, that means: COMMON TEST, that means: STUDY, that means: no time for visiting! So, i can’t wait to celebrate chinese new year. I love reunions :D:D 

So its been 4 weeks of sch already and i’m coping quite okay. Becos of bball zonals, i missed ALOT of lessons. I think die already. And next week’s worst. Table tennis competition starts and it might actually clash with bball trainings, hopefully not bball competitions or else i’m SOOO dead. Anyways here’s the results for bball.

We won 3 schools and all of them about 2x the scores:D we won Bedok View, Tampines sec, and Bedok Green. But then yest. was rlly bad, we lost to Chung Cheng by 6 points. It was rlly upsetting. I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t run for the ball when i had the chance to. I hesitated unecessarily. I shot a damn airball. I only shot in 2 out of 3 free throws and that was the only shots i made compared to the points i scored when versusing BV (more than 10 points n a 3-pointer:D).

I realised that i’ve become slower, and my jump height and stamina deproved since when i was sec2. Its rlly sad. Maybe cos i used to overexert myself because i wanted to achieve more. I just ran cos i needed to, i jumped when i don’t want to, i went on and on and rlly pushed myself. But i do these things so often that i let myself relax sometimes and gv myself excuses or further procrastinate.

During PC, what i got for my perssonality test was INTJ. Its crappy. seriously. Introvert- something bad i can’t rmber-Intuition - Judging. Throughout these years, i stopped following my heart, and think wayyyyyyyyy to much. The more i want to perfect myself, the more i limit myself. I don’t let my heart roam and think openly. I tend to restrict myself too much just to achieve what i want to achieve. Of course determination and discipline is a good thing, but i think i’ve too much of that at times. I’m too practical, i’ve gotta start being flexible. However, flexible doesn’t mean i start slacking but i shld just have fun most of the time. I’m gonna let my mind be free, i’m gonna continue loving life, do things becos i feel like doing it. There’ll still be a routine of course but i’ve gotta learn to appreciate and enjoy what i do. Just have fun:D

haha so writing all these now’s rlly dumb because i’m actually telling myself i need to chill. I’ve gotta just chill without planning to chill man. Yepp. so bball competition(round 2) will start soon after CNY or the week after next! I’m gonna laugh, play my heart out, drive whenever i want to, shoot without reason and just let my spirits fly like the angels in the sky.

Hmmm this is a VERY long post, so if you don’t wanna read it then its alright. But i like typing down my little thoughts in mind so next time maybe when i get older, when i read this, i’ll just laugh at the stupidity i have when i’m just a teenager. This reminds me. When i was young, i rmbered people telling me, or was it teachers or adults or my parents telling me this:

“Cherish your childhood now, because when you grow older in the future, life will be more complicated and stressful, you’ll worry, you’ll get frustrated, and there’ll be more problems you’ll face.”

Yeah. Come to think of it, its so true. That was why i feel so different 2 years ago compared to now. I’v changed so much and i didn’t even notice it. When i’m less sociable, amiable, pessimistic, you’all must tell me okay! Cos’ i wanna just be myself, find the fun side of me, and spread happy spirits around or smt like that. HAHA.

I think last week during ACE which watched this petronas video about life and how the whole is changing from a smiple place, to something so complicated and humans like us living in this technological world have to invent new things and change our environment to suite our life, its like we’re creating our own problems when we should actually adapt and appreciate what we have in this world. Everything can be so simple but why must we make things so complexed? Its like 1+1=2 but we’re making it so hard for ourselves like: [(2+5+6-3)/5x][2x][5/2x]=2. I don’t even think the ans is 2, thats the problem we have, we’re making life so difficult and all it does is make us lead a painful, unhappy life.

After sch just now, Rachel and i went to have lunch and went to the library while she did her math and i did my jianbao at the last min. LOL i took 2 hrs to do and my butt became 1cm bigger after seating for sooooo long. Then we went to find Jiaqi and Christina and balled tgt. for awhile. That moment when all 4 of us just played till our heart’s content and laughed, ran, defended each other, and the feeling of just PLAYING was like dejavu. I haven’t had that much fun and felt totally free of worries for such a long time. Eventhough its was just for a few minutes, but i loved it.

On the whole, no matter what we do, we’ve gotta go all out, enjoy every bit, let it last. That’s what i’m gonna do for the table tennis competition next week.

So, let’s go 德明！