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Hi world. I havent been posting for a very veryyyyyyyyyy long time. so i just feel like saying some stuffs that happened to me since the beginning of this year.
Well i went to the doctor. past few months from march-may, all i did was worry worry and worry because my parent were playing a huge part in that, and well, the school, techers, whatver shit. So life’s unfair just because i’m fucking underweight. After reading this, i know you’ll be thinking what a self centred freak i am, only talking abt me me and me, like the whole world’s revolving around me.
Yea. I feel lousy too because most probably everyone is thinking abt what a loser i am. Yea. I’ve lost everything:
- My friends who i used to love hanging out with alot
- My memory- all the nostalgia and emotions
- My family - when worrying wasn’t so much of a prob and everyone could live their own lives happily
- My body— all the hard earnned abs gone to waste due to many cases of non stop eating unhealthy crap junk food. Now just a fucking flabby layer, one over another accumulated easily from all these unhealthy shit.
- my discipline— lazyness n lack of self control. change in character. lost moral values
now it seems like its all abt me again. ok. this sucks. when u worry to much abt urself for too long a time, and dont engage others socially and enjoy doing other impt things in life. ull just end up losing ur humour, friendliness, happiness.
Most importantly, the people u cherish the most— especially ur friends.
I miss whats happening, my team, my life. @ least their happy now, maybe i was the cause of their unhappiness.
But from today onwards, I’m NOT gonna let my life remain like that. I’m gonna change my character for everyone else and for myself, for the better.
1) smile more. smile always
2) care for yr friends,loved ones, cherish every moment spent with them
3)laugh more, its contagious
4)be more dicipline and respectful no matter what.
5)spread the love
6) be more image conscious and be more aware of how i present myself as a person
God. i know u trust in me and i trust in myself, and i know that faith will make known the true meaning of life again.
